In the meantime, if you'll allow me to briefly get a bit personal, I've been struggling with a lot of stress in my social life, at my day job, and even with little things like cleaning my apartment. My future is uncertain and I feel like I am in limbo as my nearest and dearest have begun the next chapters of their lives. Not that I am not thankful for all that I have that I didn't a year ago, but it does feel like I should be winding down the "aimless 20-something" act...and I don't know how to.
This, my ever-increasing social anxiety (crying at friends' birthday parties because I don't want to interrupt anyone's conversation), the news that ANOTHER of my closest friends will be moving away from Chicago, has left me a bit of a wreck. Michael actually knew how hard everything has been for me the past few days and showed up at my work Saturday night with these:
I'm so lucky to have such a sweet man!
With the news that my insurance will cover psychologist visits, I think this is something I will be needing to explore (and have been meaning to for years, honestly). I've barely begun the searching process so who knows when this will happen, but I'm determined to acquire this. Maybe it will give me some idea what I want to do with my future, or at least give me some pause and peace until I can arrive there.
Again, forgive me for being so personal on a supposed fashion blog. I just feel this is more relevant to my life at the moment than anything else. Soon I'll have more fun entries, promise.